Let's face it: I did not rush into 2009 with my A game. I don't even think I limped to the New Year's starting line until May or June. I'm pretty sure I lost about 12 days in January. I have blank spots of missing conversations. I'm just starting to regain my cardio capacity and get back my muscle mass. I'm finally healthy. I lost out on six months, and it took nine or 10 to really start feeling better. I'm pretty happy to be bidding this year goodbye. Thrilled, really. Beset by a sense of joy I haven't felt in a very long time.
But now that I am better, things are looking up. The half marathon is in about 5 weeks, and I'm well trained and feeling pretty good about it. There's a tropical vacation in my future - my first real vacation since 2007 - and many visits planned with family and friends in the next six months. I'll be attending more joyful occasions and, hopefully, less sad ones. 2010 may just be my year, but even if it's not, it's bound to be much better than the past two.
In the spirit of looking for the silver lining, I've been thinking this week about the positives that came out of 2009. I couldn't find a whole lot, but this year did have a few good moments:
- My photos were in two exhibits this year;
- I rode a mechanical bull;
- I think I've learned how to be a better friend, and discovered that I've got some amazingly kind, generous, and honest people in my life;
- I've rediscovered - and perhaps perfected - the fine art of lounging aimlessly on the couch;
- I learned that my asthma is very sensitive to cold water - thankfully I learned this BEFORE race day;
- I've learned how to forcefully enforce limits and boundaries in order to take care of myself;
- The Mermaid 10K race was probably the best I've ever walked;
- I think I've figured out what I want out of a career. Stay tuned while I try to pursue it;
- I'm pretty sure I'll never take a nice day or a long walk or a slow bike ride for granted again; and
- I think I've learned to seize today, and to never spend a day on the sidelines. Because tomorrow I could lose my opportunity.