The past several days have brought a lot of frustration - on the job front, the money front, the transit front, the general life front. I've been particularly disheartened over some job-related things, and a little saddened to know that most of my colleagues - including my closest friends and funemployment adventurers - are all heading back to work, while I am not.
During a few conversations last week, a couple of these friends mentioned that their new jobs were secured in part by the help of former coworkers. One friend even said her former team felt responsible for finding her a job. And then she asked what my former colleagues were doing on my behalf. And I had no answer. I've been frustrated for a long time that my former teammates haven't really taken any steps to help me, despite my requests for some assistance. After the chats I had with friends last week, I felt really resentful - moreso than at any time since I left under some really ugly circumstances. And I didn't like feeling this way at all.
This afternoon, I met a former teammate for coffee. We talked for quite awhile, and I mentioned to her that several of my friends have gotten jobs through our colleagues, and that I kind of felt left behind. I was very careful in how I expressed this, and I wasn't sure how this information would be received, but I needed to say something. I didn't want this to remain unspoken and potentially undermine both our friendship and any professional relationship we'll continue to have.
I think I said just the right thing, in exactly the right way. And it spurred a terrific conversation. It also got her to thinking about some of her contacts, and the myriad emails she gets about open positions at other institutions. This lead us to talking about some of the uglier things that happened prior to my departure, and her own feelings of sadness over not being able to protect my job. It was a hard conversation, but we definitely lessened some burdens by having it.
Whether or not she'll be helpful in the future, I have no idea, though I'd like to think she will. But I feel I turned a corner today in being able to lay to rest a lot of ugliness from that job. I hope that means good things are coming.
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